Tuesday, April 20, 2010

I Feel Much Better Now

Post-Edit

That's better.

I called him last night and left a message asking how his trip went. You see, I've been simmering on a slow boil for almost a week, because he said he'd call when he returned... which should have been a week ago.

Some friends suggested that I call him, but initially my pride prevented me. He's supposed to pursue me. I thought he liked me. Why should I have to remind a man that I exist? Wah.

This morning, I received a text from McTwitchy saying he extended his trip for a week and a half because he picked up some freelance work with a friend there. He'll be back on Saturday.

As Jinxie said, and I paraphrase... it's not like he was being a jerk.

Now I'm looking forward to seeing him. I really am.
Also, now I know that this is part of his personality. He's spontaneous. He gets wrapped up in his work and doesn't call lots of people! At this point, I'm willing to see how it goes.
I have no intentions of changing him. But he has already told me that he wants to manage his time better - so if I see him working on staying in touch - it's worth it to hang in there.
If not... well hey - he's just not right for me.

But I am really looking forward to seeing him again. I feel much better!

A Nugget. Post-edit

When I replied to his text, which was a promise to call either before or after he gets home, I urged him to "Call soon... I miss talking with you."
I wanted to let him know that I miss him, without sounding mushy or over-dramatic. Yet belying a sense of urgency - which any good man should appreciate.

He replied that he wanted to talk to me too, and gave me an acknowledgment that I shall not share here... except to say, it was the nugget that I needed. Just a little something that speaks to his interest in me and appreciation of me.

That was all I needed. Just a nugget.
He is worthy of my thoughts and energy.

5 comments:

kaci jo said...

Yay! I'm so excited that he hasn't disappeared.

Sometimes reading your blog I feel like I am reading a good novel and I want to hurry up to the end to read the happy ending.

TRS said...

Kaci, ooh thank you. What a compliment! And just when I thought any readers at all must find me boring. .. thank you. I needed that!

Kaci I came to your blog just a few months ago... and found your mom's idea so sweet that when kikr found out she was pregnant, I sent her a journal for that purpose. A few days later she lost the baby and I feared the journal was just one more reminder sitting in her house while she grieved. Turns out, kikr used the journal to write down her memories of happiness, excitement and joy... over the brief experience of expecting life.
Your mom gave kikr that gift! Amazing!

Genevra said...

Yippee! I think you are handling the situation so fantastically, and you are using the dating process as a period of time to gather information about what what works for you and what doesn't. I am happy that you are feeling better. I tell you, dating can be the best of times and the worst of times.

T!nK said...

awesome!

kaci jo said...

Thanks so much for the sweet comment. I absolutely love the gift my mom left to me and my four siblings. It is amazing to think that she wrote in a journal for each of us every month to six months. It is something I definitely want to do for my children someday. It blesses me to know that you have taken the idea to bless someone else.

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